Blog update!

It was brought to my attention that my old banner made it appear as though my husband and I were getting divorced, ha! So I had to change it. My old banner said "Breaking Growing up is hard to do" and honestly it was just my idea because of the song buuuut it had to go. I'm also thinking about getting a personalized theme made for the blog soon... we'll see!

Super short deployment update

We got a mail cut-off date!!

If you don't know what this means, it's when you stop sending mail to your deployed service member because they don't expect them to get it in time... because they'll be leaving! I obviously won't share the date even though it won't give away the homecoming date (which I don't even know) but it's not super far away and it finally, FINALLY, makes me feel like this deployment may actually come to an end (because it felt like it never would).

If you can't tell, this news makes me a very very happy wife (even though I still have quite a bit of time until I see my husband's face in person).

Why I choose not to work after Baby B is born (for a while).

Some people feel that it is their duty to help me and my husband plan out our lives or to figure things out. Yes they think they are being helpful but really it's nobody's business but ours with how we choose to live after we have the baby (as long as we are taking care of her!). These people think that I should work after I have the baby, but here's why I don't want to work after baby: 

1. I want to spend time with my child and watch her grow and learn and if I'm at work I won't feel like I'm spending as much time with her as I want to. 
2. I want to breastfeed! Of course you can breastfeed and work, a lot of moms do it. Am I up for that? Who knows, but quite frankly I'd rather be sitting there feeding her and bonding with her instead of trying to pump enough to get her through the work day.
3. I want to cloth diaper. I have heard many stories of nurseries or baby sitters not wanting to cloth diaper which would make us buy disposables and that cancels out the money/earth saving cloth diapers we'd use at home. Plus I know I'll need time to get into the routine of cloth diapering and that could possibly take months! (I'm a slow learner).
4. My husband doesn't mind me being at home with her for a while. If he wanted me to work then yeah I would probably get back to working a little sooner, but he doesn't care. We are doing well enough for me to stay at home with her for as long as we want. He's a hard worker and a great husband.

It's all up to me and my husband with how we choose to live. I don't make any decisions on my own about big things like this; we talk a lot and come up with an agreement on things. Eventually I will start working again and who knows, I might work from home somehow while she's still little! We will figure it out but it's not a big issue right now. I don't think anyone should feel pressured by others (who aren't in the relationship) to go back to work after having the baby. If the situation works for you just do what you want!

I felt like I needed to add this on... this is in NO way trying to make anyone feel bad or trying to make myself sound better than anyone; it's just a semi-rant about why my husband and I want to do things this way. :)

P.S. I'm 30 weeks today! I'm 3/4 of the way there :)

(Im)Patiently Waiting

This year has been the biggest test of my patience. (I am a very impatient person). I feel like I am stuck in purgatory right now waiting on everything. I'm waiting to see if we are able to purchase a house before my husband comes home (which is hard because we never got a special power of attorney, so now he has to find a way to get one signed and sent back to me from Afghanistan). I'm waiting for classes to end so I can start maternity leave; something I need because of the stress I'm under. I'm waiting for my husband to come home... It's all. I. think. about... really it's hard to think about anything else. Of course the other big thing I'm waiting for is the end of October, for my due date! If you are an impatient person too you can probably see why I feel as though I'm stuck in purgatory. I am so so antsy and ready to close on this house that's being redone in the area around the army base and to get the papers we need to get everything finalized; I want to decorate SO bad, nesting sucks when you have nowhere to "nest". My husband told me he hopes that by the time he comes home that I have learned to be more patient with everything. I need to be more patient and here's why...

We have wasted money because of my impatience. When I want something I usually feel like I want it now and I just can't wait (I can but I don't want to). We just bought a car in March because we found out I'm pregnant and I just did not feel safe with my baby, or baby bump, in a small two-door sports car. The same car that we JUST bought is now thousands of dollars cheaper because it is closer to the end of the year. I had no idea that just a few months would make a difference in the price. Granted, I am so so glad to be in this bigger, safer car but I wish I would have waited to purchase the car. I will not be telling my husband about this because he might be a little upset with me haha. Almost everything goes down in price over time and the newest thing is not always the best! This is a lesson I had to learn the hard way. This is just one more thing I've learned on the path to being a real adult.

P.S. I am 28 weeks pregnant today! That is 7 months! We are so close to meeting our baby girl :)